I’m back.
It’s been awhile. Reading back through old posts from last
year, awe is an understatement of emotion that I feel when I think of where I
am now…on the other side of those requests, events of excitement and prayers
(answered). One thing I have been reminded about in reading my old (and few)
posts is that God is stinkin’ FAITHFUL. I encourage everyone to stop right now,
go through your old blog posts, journals, notes, whatever and SEE for yourself
that He HAS answered prayers in your own lives. I promise they will be a
catalyst for an increase in faith, like mine have been.
Anyways, where am I now? To sum up the season of life that I
am in currently, one word comes to mind: bittersweet. As cliché as it sounds, I
am on the verge of a new, fresh chapter in life. Everyone keeps telling me that
“this is the time to spread your wings and fly” or “the world is at your
fingertips.” So much excitement, yet so much fear. If you know me, then you
know that I don’t like change. At all. I am consistent and loyal. Maybe I don’t
want to spread my wings and take off just yet. A part of me wants to stay on
the ground. I like everything to always stay the same. I don’t like change to
the point that I feel a sudden rush of sheer panic every time I think of
leaving the quaint, wonderful town of College Station, my house bursting with
encouraging roommates and the people that have helped shape me as a woman over
the past four years. The reality is, all of this WILL come true in May when I
graduate and move to a completely new city and start a new job…[cue panic
attack]. What do I know to be true, though? That God is the same yesterday,
today and will be tomorrow. He never changes. Amidst the changing circumstances
in my life, He is constant. THAT, my dear friends, is so incredibly comforting.
If this season of life has been tough for you too, you will love this verse:
“Indeed we count them blessed who endure. You have heard of
the perseverance of Job and seen the end intended by the Lord – that the Lord
is very compassionate and merciful.” James 5:11
If you know the story of Job, then you know that he had
everything taken away from him; family, livestock, everything. Literally. How
did the story end? God restored everything to him and then some…TWICE as much
as he had to begin with! All I know is that once I’m on the other side of this big
fat mountain of change I am facing, the end intended by the Lord will be great
and His plans will be so much better than I can think or fathom at this point. Although
I am being shaken and stretched and pushed out of my bubble of sweet comfort, I
just need to endure. Persevere. Enjoy each moment that I am in NOW, in the
PRESENT. He will lead me one baby step at a time. And the same goes for you. He
is full of mercy and compassion. Amen.
Can’t wait to see what streams he is crafting in my desert
this year…
